Open her eyes, Lord

Have you ever known, for sure, that God has called you to do something and you are willing to do it, but you have absolutely no clue where to begin? I am facing that right now. God laid something on my heart several years ago... but I pushed it aside and dismissed it. I didn't pray, didn't think about it; I just dismissed it. I went on with my life. I was too busy for God, well, I was too busy to fit God into my life the way He wanted or planned. Dont' get me wrong, I never stopped believing in God, I never stopped talking about God, I never stopped going to church or trusting God, but I pushed Him aside in my life. He was no longer an everyday presence to me. I took Him for granted and just knew how to say and do the right things just enough to get by and pacify my conscience. Fast forward to a few months ago. Do you know the story in 2 Kings 6 about Elijah and Elisha? Here is my reference: 9 The man of God sent word to the king of Israel: “Beware of passing that place, because the Arameans are going down there.” 10 So the king of Israel checked on the place indicated by the man of God. Time and again Elisha warned the king, so that he was on his guard in such places. 11 This enraged the king of Aram. He summoned his officers and demanded of them, “Tell me! Which of us is on the side of the king of Israel?” 12 “None of us, my lord the king,” said one of his officers, “but Elisha, the prophet who is in Israel, tells the king of Israel the very words you speak in your bedroom.” 13 “Go, find out where he is,” the king ordered, “so I can send men and capture him.” The report came back: “He is in Dothan.” 14 Then he sent horses and chariots and a strong force there. They went by night and surrounded the city. 15 When the servant of the man of God got up and went out early the next morning, an army with horses and chariots had surrounded the city. “Oh no, my lord! What shall we do?” the servant asked. 16 “Don’t be afraid,” the prophet answered. “Those who are with us are more than those who are with them.” 17 And Elisha prayed, “Open his eyes, Lord, so that he may see.” Then the Lord opened the servant’s eyes, and he looked and saw the hills full of horses and chariots of fire all around Elisha. 18 As the enemy came down toward him, Elisha prayed to the Lord, “Strike this army with blindness.” So he struck them with blindness, as Elisha had asked. 19 Elisha told them, “This is not the road and this is not the city. Follow me, and I will lead you to the man you are looking for.” And he led them to Samaria. 20 After they entered the city, Elisha said, “Lord, open the eyes of these men so they can see.” Then the Lord opened their eyes and they looked, and there they were, inside Samaria. 21 When the king of Israel saw them, he asked Elisha, “Shall I kill them, my father? Shall I kill them?” 22 “Do not kill them,” he answered. “Would you kill those you have captured with your own sword or bow? Set food and water before them so that they may eat and drink and then go back to their master.” 23 So he prepared a great feast for them, and after they had finished eating and drinking, he sent them away, and they returned to their master. So the bands from Aram stopped raiding Israel’s territory. I feel like the servant who cried "Oh Lord, what do we do". I feel like I woke up and discovered that I was surrounded by an enemy who was ready to capture my whole household. Just like the King of Aram, he despised me. He despised that I warned my kids about him. He despised every thing about me. But he found my weaknesses, he found where I was, and he sent an army to capture me. The enemy came in the night, when I was asleep. I woke up and my very life was in danger. I saw no way out. And I was afraid; terrified. As I stood there looking at the enemy, it suddenly dawned on me what I had done and how he had gotten there without me realizing it. Over time, I had pushed God aside. My house had been strong once, built by the hand of THE CARPENTER; the master carepenter. But if you don't ask THE carpenter to stay, when the house weakens with age, the master carpenter isn't able to make the repairs... you asked him to leave. So what are you stuck with? You have to rely on your own skills. Sometimes they are good, but they will never compare to the master carpenter. So the repairs weaken the home. As time goes by, without the master repairing things, your house is in danger of collapsing. And that is what had happend to my house. I stopped turning to Him for repairs, and I started making the repairs on the house, myself; my house weakened. And in that weakened state, the enemy will attack. He crept in through the walls of my home, he saw cracked windows and snuck in, he saw wide open doors and freely walked in, he saw the broken seals, leaks in the roof... he came .. and I... and my whole household ... were ready to be captured. And so I stood there, realizing the danger. You see, over time, I had built up walls around my heart, in my home. At one time, our family was strong; I would confidently say that we were a testimony to Christ. We raised our children in the Lord, it was real. Our love for Christ was real. But struggles came. I built thick walls around my heart,I began to resent my husband, showing him little respect. I turned from serving others towards selfishness. I put my job ahead of my children. It wasn't over night, it was over a long time and through lots of difficulties.... but it happened. It was as if my day had turned to night. And in the night, Saten crept in. But morning has finally come. I have woke up. I walked outside and saw the "chariots and horses, the army that surrounded me. And suddenly, I found myself in a panic and crying out to God. And God sent me a few "Elisha's". My modern day Elisha has a mohawk and the confidence of the old testatment Elisha. When my world was crumbling, when my son's life was in danger, I reached out to him and said "Oh no! What shall I do?". I had cried out to God and He directed me to this man. When I cried out, he laughed and said something to the effect that.... God's got this... more or less, he said "those that are with you are more then those that are against you". God has your boy and your boy is going to be fine. Your household is going to be safe. And then he said I would experience a reset. And without a doubt, I believe he prayed "open her yes Lord". And do you wnat to know something? My eyes were opened that day. I saw the hill with horses and chariots of fire all around. I saw the army that God had ready to stand against the enemy. And suddenly, my fears were gone. The scales are off, my eyes can see... and my Lord is working! The reset button was pushed and I am ready for the battle. I am confident because my eyes can see the army all around me and it is greater then the enemy.